So we had a pregnancy scare. Mona’s Aunt Flo(w) was late this month and we were days away from a pregnancy test.
It’s all good now though it took hours off our life. The expected questions came up like what would we do and then we discussed our feelings.
Now Mona’s said before that she wants no more kids. She’s 43, has gone through 2 already (3 pregnancies in total) and does not want to go through it again. Of course pregnancies for women in their 40s comes with more risks than for younger women.
And she doesn’t want to do that to her own children, add more confusion into their lives. Which I completely respect and agree with.
But I gotta say, part of her would also love to give me a child of my own. She was having slight second thoughts. She knows I regret not having a child of my own. I wasted those prime years in my immature, confused, unfocused haze of my 20s to mid 30s.
Yes I know, I’m a man. I still could physically sire a child. But I have no intention in being a 60+ year old father of a 15 year old. I know many do nowadays. Good for them. That’s not something I’m interested in. I missed the train.
But the fact that she’s thinking of me in that way is touching.
Then she started talking about baby names, what Baby Rex would be named, if he/ she existed.
For a boy, I told her that my family would love me to name him after my long-deceased father. Dad had a name that was never mistaken for being cool. The Italian version is slightly better and I put that on the faux-table too.
For a girl, we know people who’ve named girls Hadley, Astrid, Elodie. Ugh.
I know I know, I’m going to hear it for my closed- mindedness. Yes, people have taken a hard left from the traditional names- no baby Jennifers and Michelles out there. Some baby names these days are just eyebrow-raisers. I think it should be required that people get 3 other people sign off on baby names. (Tattoos too.)
We went back and forth a bit. I like 1 or 3 syllable names with my 2 syllable last name. Julia? Juliet (ugh. Her idea.)
We decided on Vanessa. I think that’s a very pretty name. Every time I meet a Vanessa, she’s always awesome. So that’s the name. For our daughter. That we’ll never have.